CHILLOUT WEEKEND

I think I didn't mention our great chillout weekend at Myjava (a slovak village)... I'm too lazy to write everything about it, so I just posted some pictures in which u can see what it was like. Enjoy!


me and my very good friend Deniska



saturday night party with great music and of course total fun



look of the living room at 4 am



early morning view of the sun rising behind the trees in Myjava
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BETRAYED AND FORGOTTEN

Life is a piece of shit today... why? because of me, of course. Because of my destructive thinking and reality accepting... yes, I have found out something that changed my life again, and I'm gonna accept that change. No matter who persuades me, no matter what they will tell me, no matter what comes im my way... I'm not gonna stop going my way... I don't care if anybody makes fun of me, and I really don't mind if anybody thinks I'm a fool. So why am I doing this? The answer is simple. ...Because I want to, because I was forced to, because I have no other option. I won't pretend to be the 'good boy' anymore! I'm not gonna be friendly to everyone. ...I've had enough! For those who (maybe) understand: "Don't try to contact me, I'm OFF!" , and I dont't care. (anyway I don't think any of you will read this).

SUNSHINE MAKES ME SICK

Well... Here in Bratislava the reign of snow has said its last words yesterday, because today I felt, that spring has taken over this city. At first I though it was great, but then I realized, that the change of atmosphere Is something like a shock to me. The streets were suddenly 'too crowded', it's not so dark outside... I don't know... Everyone has changed a little bit... people turned into happy smiling cheerful beings with no problems at all. But not me. I still have the problems I had before and I don't feel any change except of the weather. Maybe I'll be a smilie tomorrow too, but It's really strange to watch people how they are passing by full of new energy ... I never thought weather could influence people so much...

THE BEST THING

Big blue eyes, perfume scented girl,
beauty combined with silver shine,
black and white as yin and yang,
compressed to a single line.

A perfect idiot acting as a star,
politely lying in every word,
showing no real emotions at all,
the best thing I ever heard.

Large red lips, perfume scented girl,
smile spread over the place,
black and white as bad and good,
expands to every human face.

A perfect idiot acting as a bitch,
insulting by every single word,
showing hatred in every single thought,
the best thing I ever heard.

A SCHOOL DAY

Well, today, like any other weekday I had to go to school, but this time it was even more annoying, because the 'great return' of our English teacher from a trip to London just had to happen now... (since we had no english lessons for one whole week it wasn't so bad because we could go home earlier etc.) ... Everyone was thinking about questions to give her (to delay her intention to give us an exam), and I came up with a great one: It was: 'Have you finally managed to learn English in London?'. Of course I didn't ask her (that would be too offensive), but I figured out the answer right after her 15-minute speech about the trip. SHE CAN'T SPEAK! It's so terrible! And still it's our teacher (despite half of the class is more skilled in English than her)... (!) ...Well: Just a few thigs she said (and didn't actually realize what she said): 'Did you did?', 'Little while no rain, little while YES rain.', 'You didn't ask my question!'... etc. (We write notes about what she says every lesson)... It's quite funny isn't it? ...And to continue in the story... yes, we have postponed the exam, but we didn't survive the homework-check (you can guess I didn't do it :-D )... so I was punished by a bad mark (but I don't really care)...To make a conclusion to this (for me very long) post, I have to say THAT I HATE SCHOOL! ...end!

LONELY THOUGHTS (PART EIGHT)

Lately I have been enjoying life as much as possible, I spent all my time relaxing or having fun with friends. It was great, but then I found out, that I didn't have any time left for thinking. And now... I don't have anything to write here, just because I didn't think (about my very problematic problems of course). Yes, I have many stories to tell, but I just don't want to write them here, because this blog isn't about my life. It should be about thoughts, and the only thing I can think about is, that I can't figure out what to write here. THIS I call total emptiness.

VISION AND FANTASY

This is only a result of my visions and fantasy. I think it's quite good... It makes me think... And the tree in the background creates cute little scar-like thingies around the eye. Hope u like it!
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