KILLING CULTURE

Yesterday was the day when I managed to slow down a little bit. I wanted to have some peace finally, lately people have been very annoying, so I disconneced my pc from the internet and went out. When I returned home I sat down on the sofa and turned the television on (I hadn't been doing this for a really long time, so I wanted to see what had changed since my last visit to the massmedia world). What I saw was absolutely rude and stupid. I saw a commercial, nothing special, but it defeated my brain system in a few seconds. It started with the melody of an old show on the tv I used to watch when I was a kid.. it was my favourite programme, all the kids loved it. It was about a puppet boy named Kuko (see the picture), and his friends. Okay..so back to the commercial. I was really happy to hear that melody...it reminds me of the times when I was a kid... but then the picture came in. It displayed Kuko in a Rubbish bin, his head hanging from the top of the container. I couldn't believe my eyes! THEY JUST KILLED MY CHILDHOOD IDOL! The melody was replaced by a strange-techno-remix and three playstation2 games appeared on the screen with the slogan saying something like: 'Let's forget the old times, playstation2 is the future.' ...I don't have words for such rudeness. I pity today's children. All they do is playing computer games and their creativity vanishes. This commercial is a great example of how f*cked up this consumer society is.

	Marilyn Manson - Suicide Is Painless
	Disappointed

SEDATIVES

I was drowning in a sea full of needles
the sun wasn't shining at all
I could only see me and my pain
realized I was building a wall

I was swimming in a river of poison
it drained my life even more
I did nothing but absorbing the acid
realized I was becoming a whore

I was flying over clouds made of drugs
breathing the air made me high
I looked down on the world beneath me
realized life was just slipping by

I was walking on a snow covered road
stepping on the white powder brains
I turned my head to the sky
realized what flows in my veins.

THE SACRIFICE OF NOTHING

The pain was willing to go away
but I begged for it to stay
the dream was taken and now it's gone
illusion ends today

what I wanted was unreachable
my hopes were far too high
why did I think it was easy to get
everything on one try

the colours have vanished from the scene
it's not blindness, it's fear
my sacrifice wasn't enough
I gave out one whole tear.

THE OLD TIMES

Yesterday I couldn't sleep at night, I just needed some music before the day ended...probably because of the things that ruined my day. So I grabbed my cd player, put The Calling cd in and started to listen. The first song immediately kicked me out of reality into the world of memories...memories of the 'old times'. I remember the days when I got to know Gabique... the most magical person I've ever known and her two friends Sima and Maja...the times when everything was so simple and beautiful, when we could laugh whenever we wanted to... . We forgot all our problems and fears. Now..it's different. Everyone has his/her own business, we are no longer doing what we want, we are doing things we have to do... everyone feels so grown up, they all need responsibility to prove that they are real adults. But..who cares? In the end it's just you and your responsibility...with no attention from the others...and there's nothing left for you but to bear the burden you have set yourself. Funny, isn't it? I feel that things will never be the same again. I hope someday we will return to our old way of life... .

	Nine Inch Nails - The Fragile
	Sad

HERE WE ARE

Here we are, standing on the edge of the highest building here
priceless we are without any sign of fear
the cemetery's dead, it lost its magic today
I see my broken head floating away

here we are, telling ourselves lies, laughing and building walls
thoughtless we are, our brains are full of holes
memories were kept until it was too late
I see them all sharing my sensless fate

here we are, singing these old songs, praying to be free
helpless we are, we will never see
the sun has turned so dark, it shines no more
I see my dirty hand locking the door.